I needed a place to vent, to write, to put out anything and everything that is on my mind as it pertains to grad school. Maybe this will be silly. Maybe I'll hardly write in it, but something tells me that one day I'll look back on these entries and smile, because my future self has made it through school and I'm hopefully on to greener pastures. Grad school has been an exercise in floundering and perpetually suffering from imposter's syndrome. In retrospect I wasn't ready for this and didn't have a clue of what I wanted to study. I write notes constantly, trying to make a project out of samples that have been collected over the years with hopes that I can defend something that is meaningful and informative. I'm terrified of being torn apart by everyone at school and reviewers if I try to publish anything that comes from all of this.